ANONYMOUS

 

Anonymous, that’s what we call to a person who doesn’t have name. I like being anonymous sometimes, where I can hide my real identity. No one knows you. Some want to know you.  And some just ignores you. Funny, but that’s the truth I usually hiding from people, people who don’t know how to respect, people who can’t be true to themselves and people who are very judgmental.  Because of them, I don’t know now how to show myself, I’m not that ugly but I’m not also pretty. :) But it doesn’t matter, no one cares. Sound pathetic but somewhat true. Well, just try to ignore me. Cause I really don’t care, As long as I’m not hurting others.  I’m still the good person that my creator wants me to be, but I’m sure that He’s not happy now because my heart is full of hatred. And no one can blame me.

I still remember when a friend of mine told me that I can sing, quite true but I don’t have guts to show it to many people. We have a lot of singers, they may be enough. :)

I love being anonymous but I hate the fact that nobody knows me. :(

I always hide from darkness. For me, it’s better to lock the door than to give other people an opportunity to judge me. Maybe other sees me strong, yes they are right but they don’t know that I’m the weakest of all the strongest. :)

How I wish that I’m still in the womb of my mother, for some reasons. I really hate this unfair world. I hate the fact that even your friend betrayed you. That even your cousin wish you to fall down. That even your own father tries to hold your life. But that's the way things are and the way things are sucks. L

That’s why I decide to hide, I decided to be anonymous, and so no one can criticize me directly.

 I know very well that I’m only hiding from reality.        

 But don’t worry because In Gods right time, I’m going to remove my mask. :)

How about you, why are you showing yourself?

And you, why are you hiding like me? :)

The Black HOUSE

Hi everyone I’m Cheska, would you mind if I tell you a story? J Actually it’s my story. :P I have a friend name Amy. She’s beautiful, kindhearted, very smart and religious, and she really loves books, like really. Maybe you’re wondering why I’m giving you a data about my friend Amy, it’s simply because were the only character of the story. LOL. I really love to laugh so don’t mind me. Haha. And the story goes like this.

                It was a brilliantly sunny day; I’m walking alone, just want to unwind. Twenty minutes passed, I haven’t notice that I already stood in front of a very interesting house. Why interesting? It’s because the house is being coated by all black paint, as in all black. Gosh, so scary. Yeah I love black but I can’t dare to live in an all black house. And I feel that someone is pushing me to enter into the black house since the house had virtually no front yard to speak of, I step and step and step until I reached the front of the door. For a moment, I felt a tingle of fear and listened for a sound around me, but there was nothing to hear. The silence is killing me. I think this house was definitely a sad house, a haunted house. And then I realized that I’m staying for no reason, because I don’t have any plan to open the door but honestly I want to get in. hahah. So, I decided to go home.

                The next day I decided to go in the book store, of course to buy books. It’s because I’m so bored in the house. When choosing a book, I usually look first to the cover and then if I like the cover I read the back. And that’s what I did. Hihihi.

                In my peripheral vision I’ve notice that someone is looking at me, actually she’s looking to the book that I’m holding. Hahaha.  And I look at here too, she picked the same book and the conversation starts.

AMY: I know most of the book explain a bit about the story on the back, but I think that it’s important to know the cast first. This book is so colorful, I dint know, why is that people judging the book by its cover?  Anyways I’m AMY. J

Cheska:  I’m Cheska, I just read books when I’m bored. J

I feel so comfortable with her, like we talked for 3hours maybe. We shared experience, love life, likes and dislikes. She’s so kind, like she really ask for my number. Actually were regular text mate after what happened in the bookstore. We get to know each other more, like really. Hahaha. She’s so sweet, I also find her pretty inside and out. Nope, I don’t like her as my girlfriend, were both straight. Hahah. Just to assure you.

                We hang out; shop together until she invited me to go with her, to eat dinner with her. She once told me that she’s living alone in her house. I think it’s ok to sleep with her. Again, were both straight. Hahaha. :P Lets continue… And so I go with her, as we travel I fall asleep because of tiredness. And she wake me up because were already in our final destination. Lol.

Cheska: so were here.

Amy: yeps that’s my house.

 As I turn my head I was really shocked of what I saw. Gosh, the black house.

Amy: (laugh and laugh and laugh)

Cheska: Whats funny girl?

Amy: hahaha. If you just see your face after seeing my house. Haha, I’m expecting that.

CHeska: so this is youre house?

AMY: yes, this is my beautiful and wonderful house. Let’s get in.

Cheska. You called this beautiful and wonderful? Gosh.

Amy: L

Cheska: im just kidding. Ok, let’s get in.

While getting inside I prefer to close my eyes. I’m expecting a Chaka doll hanging, and weird stuffs, like all black things. She turns on the light and I open my eyes. I’m speechless. Do you want to know how it looks like? OMG. Well it was clean and organized house. What’s inside is very opposite outside of her house. All I can say is “WOW” And she smiled and asks me to sit.

THE END. :P

FAN SIGN

It was December 29, 2011 when we requested a fan sign from our idol ate kharren or kurei. Ahhahah I still remember that moment; it takes a very long time to think what or how I’m going to approach ate kharren for a fan sign, maybe I stayed in the internet cafe for four hours. Lol. Just imagine. And after 4 hrs of thinking, mission completed.  Ahahha
January 6, 2012 she tagged the fan sign that she made and we don't know how to hide the happiness that we felt. OMG, that's all I can say. Till now January 24, I still can’t recover for what really happened. She is really kind for giving her effort. We really appreciate it. 

Thank you so much te kharren!!!!!! we love you!!!

THE ONE

You’re my idol since first Year College, you really inspired me a lot, but sadly we never got a chance to be friends. We once become classmate in only one subject, then group mate but still I don’t have enough strength to approach you. LOL.  I don’t know why??? Huhuhu. You’re so near yet so far. But I promised to myself that I won’t give up. Weeeh!!!

 Your fashion is so different from others but that’s the reason why I idolized you so much, your uniqueness is your best asset after all. I’m not gay but I really find you so attractive. Your smile is the perfect smile ever. The way you dressed yourself makes you more beautiful. Others find it weird but, we your fans called it fashion. That’s how you influence us.

I never expect that you’re going to be the representative of 4th year level in one event of our school. I was really shocked when 1 of your classmate told me that.  Gosh, I know you’ll win, I don’t have any doubt. You have the prettiest face, coolest personality and smartest brain. You’re just simply the best. LOVE IT!!!!

Every time you walked in the hallway I can’t stop myself looking at you. No one knows it before but now all of them doing the same. Tsk. hehehe. You are so adorable in your own ways, like really!!! Hehe. J


I added you in my facebook, I thought you’re going to ignored it but the day after my request, I was so happy when I opened the notification. Yes! Were already friends in FB! And as I explored your profile, there I find out that you know how to draw and were both anime lovers. At least we have something in common. Hihihi. GOSH, you have a lot of hidden talent, you know how to sing, dance, and play instruments, and draw and what so ever. You are so GIFTED.

One of the things that I like about you is your being religious. Because you’re not only saying that you’re a Christian but you also acts like one. You inspire a lot of people, without you I can’t imagine myself now. Funny but, you bring out the best in me. Hahaha. You don’t have any idea how I idolized you, and now I have already members, they are not recruited, and no one force them to join me. Hahahah

Ate kha, I Thank God he made you, as the perfect model. I and my friends are always supporting you, even in the interschool competition. Were not obliged to come but were just doing our part as your fans. LOL. You really did a great job that night, though we felt like were losing our voices, were still cheering you. Hahaha. It’s all worth it because you won. We want to take a picture with you but your classmate and new fans are there… haha. We can’t find opportunity. But it’s ok, better luck next time. LOL.  

You know what, as were about to go in our respective homes, we don’t have any topic but only you, that you’re so beautiful, smart and so ever. My ears never get tired of listening to those words its like my favorite song that i always want to hear every seconds. hayyyyy!!!!. I wish that you will keep your feet on the ground; I pray that God will never stop blessing you.

I hope that someday you will read this. 

It’s me XHUGAr, one of your fan.